Xmas in CVG

Ela, Ela Ey..

I was almost so close to dying out of boredom a while ago..

Thanks to my team mate slash friendship Elah, I was saved. She was doin her shopping spree at SM so I immediately changed and met with her. T'was soo fun, we we're bitchin' and laughing out loud at all those young preppies who dresses like there's no tomorrow..(hahaha! quote: wala n bang bukas ysh at ganyan sila magsuot?) hahaha!

Jenny, on the other hand was itching again for all the gossip, haha (inggit!)..She has a suncellular line so there, you may have guessed, my ear felt so hot with the 3hour chikka blabbering with her, and that's while I was busy chatting with Ela too!!..tsk tsk..These girls can pull the living hell out of me, but still, they're fun and that's what makes us BFF's.

Y, J, and Little J... love it!

I love my girls though, no one should mess with them..

REMEMBER: We don't get mad, We get EVEN.

:)

All I Want For Christmas Is...

Gossip Girl Book

Red Shoes from Celine

Another NegativiTEE Shirt with print "Pilya"

Veronica Mars Complete DVD Collection Seasons 1-3

MAC Make-up Kit

and lastly....

THIS MAN! Hahaha.. Chad Michael Murray! Right Jenny? Hahaha.. U really like men of these kind (semblance?)..nuh uh...hahaha..:)

My Supercoach Jenny

I have found my long-lost twin, my counter-part, my nemesis, my sister soul, my reincarnated half.

Jenny!!!

I met her at my work office, at GM, she was one of the super coaches and she was assigned to ours (Team Achieva). Anyway, I am beyond shocked and appalled on how every once in a while, we discover lots of common things between us, some are way way scary na! hahaha! Love yah J (I call her that, she calls me Y) From previous boytoy, to ultimate crushes (chad oh chad!), to names of ex hook-ups, to chocolate addiction, and from being a school-paper nerdy in HS to loving mocha fraps. Hahaha.. Shet. She’s like an epitome of Grace Kelly, of Audrey Hepburn, of Queen Elizabeth, but despite the lovely and enticing physical appearance  is a deception lurking under a devilish and meanie brat (just like me!) ahaha! She can be the expert probing B (haha) and I can always be the conscience behind every line that she utters which I soo know has a hidden meaning. Can’t hide from me ryt? I even keep her ultimate (is it?) secret crush on the floor but I get way way impressed on how she can be soo discreet and icy when she sees him. Hahaha! I am trying to be the Ms. Match again here but then this guy is soo..oh I dunno! He’ll probably read this anyway.hahaha..right? I bet you’re reading this coz u saw the title and you hafto admit, you can like J as well.hehehe

Well, to more coffee chit-chats and future crush overload moments, hope this friendship lasts.

Dencio and Danny

Last night was friggin great! Hahaha.. I went out (met up) with my team mate and we went to Trinoma, decided on Dencios and drank our hearts out..:)

It's actually fun when you get to see the city at night again (talking bout call center peeps) and of course you get to mingle with other guys. Well it so happened that this companion I had was indeed a very genuine and funny one, never a dull moment with him. All laughs and witty responses. Love it!

At around 11PM, we went to Timog and had the cab drop us at Danny's Grill. At that time I was soo (f*ck what's the english term for kilig ba??) hahaha..then and there we talked and talked and talked till we got tipsy..haha, I didn't consume enough for my brain to shut dead because I'm still goin home so I was moderately secured. Ahahaha!:)

The end point is, I had fun last night. And this has never happened for the past 5months.

Thank you EJ. ;)

GALERA ALERT 08!

HOT ALERT!

Okay so I've been to hell and heaven and back again. I had this PTO (paid time-out) for a week from work so I had the chance to go home (bicol) and visit my loves there. Bonding with Mum, gimmick with best friends (kai, lala, grace). It was a blast, I felt so good to be back in my hometown and finally be able to do again the things that I was so used to doing when I was still a bum (quote: tambay)

I left Bicol Wednesday 6PM and arrived in Manila Thursday, 5AM. at exactly 7AM, I found myself on a bus (again) going to Batangas Pier. And at 10AM, I was busy taking pictures inside a motor boat on the way to Puerto Galera (White Beach). Imagine my energy. :(

I went there with my former team mates and the "husband" of Treefrog was there as well.. Remember treefrog? hahaha. Ok, so here's the deal, Yang, Rish and I went crazy on the first night, went swimming (kapalan ng mukha!) and gulped Mindoro Sling. Around 1am, when we felt tipsy we went swimming again and had a really great time.:) It was then when I realized that Treefrog was in fact invited by his "supposed" husband and the ugly hoe'll be arriving the day after. Ugh.

Ok, anyway, the three of us had a blast and our Puerto Galera adventure was really "sulit". But morning came and there, there, I entered our rented room with FLY shades, floral dress, henna tattoo on my left chest and there was little miss treefrog, all ugly and dissapointing. Hahaha. Her eyes are like of a drooping dog's and her tummy! OMG. hahaha!

I felt all so bitchy again so I was so "loud" and she was like "O.P"..hahaha

She changed into her so-called Summer Outfit (maong shorts which emphasized her huge butt and a very "baduy" two-piece under a very cheap sleeveless tank top) How very effin funny.:))

Honestly, she's not worth-it, not even close to any competition I should consider. Eew

Anyway, I'll post some pics when rish uploads them, here's a few though:

Which female character from 'Gossip Girl' are you?

from: www.quizilla.com

You are BLAIR WALDORF

You are popular and pretty. You can be nice to get what you want, but most of the time you're just plain mean. You have your whole life planned out ahead of you and idolise Audrey Hepburn.

Hmm.. Am I like her? I just took the quiz you know...

Go figure babes! :D

Good Morning Post

Good morning Philippines!

Tired. Just got home from work and hell my tummy aches. Anyway, I've learned another life-essential lesson today..."Why Settle for Less?"

Wondering where that one is coming from? Well, before when I was still an aspiring nobody I used to be contented to just everything that comes ordinary, be it material or achievement. I'm making my point clear enough right? Well now that I'm working already, I am slowly building this determination to succeed and hope to God I can finally tower and be proud of myself. See, this blog is not all about my bitching (bummer...did I just use that word again on a supposed-serious post?) hahaha :) It's inate so bear with me my beloved readers.

Anyway, since I'm starting from the bottom, I know someday I will reach that peak of success. Every successful man has come from the starting line and I'm proud to say that I've already run a few miles from the start. Still I know, I'll be encountering a few obstacles here and there, I don't care, I will survive (naks!)

So there, I am again on the verge of fainting. Sleep is all that's lacking in my life right now, I'm starting to hate the mirror, whenever I face it I see eyebags! pakshet. Hahaha

Ciao!

The Ysh Rises

Timing is of the judges of life. Destiny is fatal. I wanted to secure every single decision that I made just so I don't regret anything in the end. I so wanted to make everything right... just so I can say to myself that I made the right thing, and with no regrets I can continue with my life as it is right now.

But when Fate interferes, Timing and Destiny falls out.

I keep calling that special person who I consider still as mine, though we or I decided to stay low and part ways I still give a damn about him, but he opts not to answer. Okay, I can deal with that, nor if I find out that he's seeing someone new, I can totally understand.

I just wanted a pleasant closure (Why do I hate that word?)

Anyway, I have been rummaging again into my own closet trying so desperately to find myself. But what the heck I see a mirror and I like (love) what I see in myself right now even though I don't know her that much anymore. Whew that was deep. Bitch.. Hahaha

So next week I'll be going home, to the place where I belong (hahaha).. I want to see my friends, the people there, the scent of my hometown. I hope we can talk and get a chance for a decent conversation..I just wanted to have the peace of mind I so deserve.

Okay change topic!

Last sunday was our team building, we went to Green Nature Resort (see previous post) and had a blast. We spent the night at Nikki's at Montalban and well, exciting things happened. Peej, Leah, Nikki, Elah, Kenji and yours truly are the official Sleep Over Club members..hahaha. Truth or Dare is such a classic, we had to play it and well well, the truth always comes out. Peej ha, who would have known you're as masculine as any hunk could ever be! Hahaha.. And Elah? I honestly thought you we're the angelic kind (so wrong of me)..ahaha..As for Nikki and Leah, you guys rock! Just wait for your prince charmings to come...It will. :) And Kenji, tsk tsk... you learned much from me right? Want more lessons? Hahaha.

I'm in a way happy on the contrary of the word "single" and I'm quite satisfied with what and who I have with me right now. Though memories stab me in the back sometimes, it always fades. So I guess it's high time that I give all the love I've been stocking in my treasure chest to myself and only myself right now.

Right?

Bitch! Hahaha!

Sneak Peek

"No, happily never after,

That just ain't for me,

Because finally

I know, I deserve better

After all...I'll never let another teardrop fall..."

Why am I fussing over this song that gives me the LSS? I don't know. I am feeling overwhelmed by my status as of the moment, God have mercy upon my soul when I confess the turn of events that has gotten into my hateful yet loving self.

Last sunday, we had a team building at Green Nature in San Mateo, t'was fun! I got to know my new team mates and we spent the night at Nikki's (witch!) haha! It was me, Leah, Nikki, Elah, Peej and Kenji (kenken) =D

Fun! Fun! Fun!

I'm too sleepy to chip in the juicy deets, soon you'll get a feast guys. Mwah Mwah! :)

Rush Hour

I'm sick and I hate it. I wasn't able to go to work because I have to stay home and nurse this condition I have (sorry I can't tell you)

I've been using my time, not wasting of course, chatting with Gian and his witty, smarty responses. Why does he seem so like my sister soul? (brother soul?) hahaha

I missed my callbacks. pakshet

Thanks to Kenken, being our group leader..He should be managing my callbacks for today.=)

And Mr. Eggplant if you're reading this I'm sorry but Tapa King is not my option right now. hahaha.

Thanks G for the very inspirational call. You are such an angel and I hope to God that I don't end up enlisting you on my restricted list..

Ciao!

Miss you guys

Little L Tries... And loses again

Ok, so Little L has been doing her assignments and has gotten my mobile number. She thinks it's so cool coz finally she can send me SMS with all the profanity in the world.

Hahaha. Pathetic trying hard bitch.

Why oh why am I such a threat? You still don't get it don't you Little L? You already lost the war. I already won. With all the information I have at hand you might not wanna hear it... ever. Hahaha

Why can't you accept the fact that your flirt-slash-maniac boyfriend is sooo into me? What did I do? Nothing! You are the cheapest bitch ever made on earth. No Kudos to your mom.

I told you to stop already and you didn't listen.

Well well well, wanna play MY game now?

Go hide now Little L. The Queen B is on your way.

Loser! 

Something About Her...=)

Okay, I’m now a renewed person I can say. What sense? Go figure. I am appalled by my new choice of words lately and god my actions are weirdly fascinating!

See?

I honestly thought I left the ‘other’ side of me in the past; I kept those days of... oh well... not-so-good-girl theme but now it has resurfaced and I am not disappointed at all. I can almost taste the welcoming party of my whole system, I’m back!

I’ve met new friends at work and some of them I can say are fine. I’ve got new team mates, well most of them are boys but no pressures at all, they’re all nice and funny actually.;)

My ex boyfriends have been hinting once in a while but then again, I prefer to be on my own as of the moment. I am loving my own self and I’ve lost weight for the past few months, *love it!* Anyway, I intend to keep that especially now that I’m inspired (B!), though it sucks to always be bombarded by memories and you know but hey I think I can do this…really… (Fingers crossed)

Tell me how I’m supposed to be with no air… (I’m hearing this now)

Gracie – I miss you! Happy birthday to my godson Zeioun on 13th! (see you on the 25th)
Lala- I’ll miss you sis, take care of the baby bump you have there. I’m happy for you. =)
Kakai- How are you cuz? How’s your boylet JR? hehe
Yhe- Ne! Miss you! Take care din of your baby! (gosh all of you are preggy na..)
Vnx- When’s the slumber party? Miss you
Mae- I so need you guys… Sleep over!
Miles- I’ll see you on your upcoming concert! Love yah sister!

Ichi- You take care always mkay? Do good..=)

Xoxo...Way to go GG

I've been addicted to Gossip Girl lately since, well, thanks to manong guard of CVG who sells DVD's I've got hold of the complete season 1 and now I got season 2..damn that Blair Waldorf, she brings out the bitch in me..hahaha! I so love the drama, the twists, the plot, the bitching of the characters.

Anyway, since I've mentioned that out, seems that Little L (read my previous post) now backed off, maybe she already knew that she'll never outdo who else but me.

And thanks to Taz, my office mate, I now have an official tag name for Little L, that is, Miss Chambermaid Googly Eyed Tree Frog. Ain't that classic?

Anyway, I've been livin' life here in the big city with pride, I'm loving my job, the people, the lifestyle (though I get to go to Milesy's place rarely, and I haven't effin met with my brother yet again!) I can be often seen with my new mean girls at starbucks, sipping our espresso and fraps and smoking like hell. What can I say, I loved Sex in the City and there, there, I got my own girls.

My best friend who recently just got married informed me that she'll be retreating back to our old hometown to nurse the baby bump of hers that probably is not growing any smaller by this moment. Well well, I hope we can have one last girl bonding for old sake's time.

I've been secretly exchanging insider gossips with my girlfriends at the office and what the F it really is fun! hahaha, really when I discovered that we have a Lilo look a like at the office and of course, Stitch wouldn't be out of the picture, I couldn't stop. Imagine Sully from Monsters Inc roaming around our prod. floor? you know you'll love it. hahaha

Pics Pics!

Leighton Marissa Claire Meester

Oh hi Serena (seriously I'm gonna name my kid Serena Blair, hahaha!)

isn't she just the prettiest bitch? (Blair Waldorf not Leighton Meester of course)

xoxo... You know you'll love me...

Little L loses

“Holding hands with my hubby? What about? What’s your problem?!”

HAHAHAHA.
Okay.

I’ve been getting messages from some average-looking girl since yesterday and god how desperate she is. Seriously, are you really pulling this stint with me? How did you ever think that it was I, me, moi who keeps lashing out the flirting scenes at the office with your quote husband quote? *oh are you wed?*

Oh my, would you keep your sperm-donor now, I wouldn’t be losing effort anyway.

And God, the lengths you went through just to send me those lame messages! You must be really threatened. Sweety, if you wanna play with a bitch, be a good one first. But then again, maybe you can never be… with your face looking like that. ;))

Will you never get over it? :))
It`s effin’ funny, seriously.

Your supposed husband doesn’t even match my standards, and oh that weird thing that you keep on saying, that one where you pointed out that I’m not pretty or good-looking? Remember? Well ask that to your man, he might just give you the answer why he seems to be so head-over-heels on me. And mind you, he’s overly dramatic.

What can I say?

I am flattered.

Call me anything, I wouldn’t even bat an eyelash. xoxo

You know you love me.;))

Eyeglasses...Anyone?

A month ago, my aunt and I went to the Eye Care Center at Makati to look for a new pair of glasses which she badly needed. She required new ones since her old pair of glasses is already tattered and loose, and because later, she'll be going to Cebu to attend a seminar with her co-leagues. So then, we picked up different types of eyeglasses which would fit her reading grades and also would complement her appearance, but I was shocked with how expensive the prices were! One pair costs no less than around $150! Whew, I browsed and looked for the cheapest pair but still $90 is expensive for me so I told my aunt that I'll check the internet if I can find cheap but with good quality eyeglasses for her, and what do you know I really did find a site which offers exactly what we were looking for! The Zenni Optical $ 8 Rx Eyeglasses imagine? Only $8 and my aunt can choose from lots of varieties, colors, rims, cases, lenses from the Incredible Stylish New Frames From Zenni. I'm so thrilled with how cheap the glasses were offered, I can buy my aunt a dozen if she likes rather than that fancy $150 at the mall and we also found out that Zenni Optical was on FOX news! Isn’t that great!

Are you looking for the perfect glasses too? Check out Zenni here

Just Another Entry

THAT THING THEY CALL “FALL OUT OF LOVE”

By Ysh: 10/15/08 -12:36AM

I’m again sitting here at the cold and sometimes freezing production floor of my work office. And as you may have guessed, I am searching every knick-knacks of my entire soul just to find that inspiration I so need when I start into writing pieces of junks like this. Well I do apologize if this may cause you any nose bleeding effect (haha, I would love to have that line for my customers). It’s “avail” now that’s why I had the time and opportunity to scribble this nonsense whatever. But since the title of this post gives out a little sense, I might as well continue the blabbering. (hehehe)

Okay that was easy for a prologue, what the… Hahaha!

I’ve been with someone for two years of my “beautifully” spiced up life and well I can say that he’s been too generous and loving to me, he’s given me every possible thing that may make the spoiled brat in me religiously happy. Hahaha! I myself am laughing at my own choice of words. Well going back, I’ve ventured into a relationship wherein anybody might be just jealous with how my partner nurtures and takes care of me. I’ve been a baby, a princess, a queen. I’ve known well enough every principle, every rule and regulation someone should master before entering in a relationship. I did. It just so happened I forgot the key ingredient: “contentment”. Damn.

I’m not into the very conducive mood of producing a very heart-warming article tonight because from time to time, I am being disturbed by my very demanding customers, duh (whatever customer, you’re such a loser!). See my point here? I am writing as if…well, nothing. Well my prologue did a little better though, it’s just that I can’t see anything or anyone here who can at least make me smile and give me the “inspiration” I need. Sob.

Okay, (sigh). I am falling out of love with my supposed boyfriend. There I said it. 

Now what do I do? Bummer… I can keep the emotion in my pandora’s box for as long as I want to but then the remnants remain scattered into my conscious dilemma. I feel guilty. Period. I don’t wanna make him feel like how I’m making him feel right now, but then why am I able to tolerate his hurting?

With all due respect everyone I can honestly, totally attest that no one, no other guy is involved on my part of the issue. I had this like a nightmare, I woke up with the realization that I have been dwelling myself on this unreal and superficial standing with regards to the matters of the heart. But it seemed so perfect, what we had was genuine, was true. I am the wrong end of the line, I can bow and stoop to the lowest ground if need arise that I ask for his understanding and forgiveness. Or I can wait till I finally realize that I’m being impulsive and melodramatic, that I just need the freedom and space that most women of my age and situation feel at one point in time and then we can be happy again… just like before. But then again, the thought only lingers.

Yeah that was deep. Lines go rushing like a torrent into my mind, and I just have to rush myself as well to get to them before they disappear. You see how a writer’s tight spot is? -Inspiration. Maybe that’s what I’m lacking as of the moment, maybe that’s the sole reason why I’m feeling so platonic over my “partner”. Or maybe it’s the distance, I’m here, he’s there. Or maybe the setback is him all along; maybe I’m not seeing the same person anymore. I’d have to admit, I can’t foresee myself living with him in that fairy tale land in the future anymore.

I won’t blame him if he one day expresses his rage and resentment to me. I will take the guilt. I did not however force myself to feel this dormant emotion. I have just wasted two years of happy memories of my life; I have dumped the possibility-slash-reality that I may have found my prince charming already. Damn.

I’ve just once again produced another blog-winning eyesore. Another drama, another stage-show, hahaha! You people have just again read an inkling of what’s happening to me now. I’ve been though hell of a lot, my emotional gauge has been reaching the highest point and then dropping flat low ground. Shit happens.

I can say that again. Shit happens!

Your Decency Sucks

Sometimes, it takes a huge bullshit for someone to realize that a person is not worth any consolation at all just because of the fuck, excuse me, fact that you are a naturally love-oriented person.

There are just some evil people disguised in an angel’s suit to deceive and pull the shit out of your sane life. Yeah you go trippin’ with people, you don’t think, you become impulsive only to find out that you’ve intentionally intertwined your already mixed-up life with someone who will just tie the knot tighter. You get me here?

There are people whose hobby or maybe whose principle in life is to leave other people hanging in the air with the hopes and dreams that they won’t ever, ever make happen. Poof! MAGIC! They just disappear and act as if nothing happened. They are called ASSHOLES.

I’m not writing this because of bitterness, that I will make clear, but because I want to release the angst that I feel towards people like those. Those who doesn’t have the decency to tell what you did wrong, or maybe you didn’t do anything wrong, maybe they are the mistakenly created ‘wrong’ people on earth. Maybe some will get the idea that I’m figuratively making ‘parinig’ to someone. Well, go figure.

But for people like me, who I don’t know the hell why always believes in Love and second chances, in forgetting and forgiving, in friendship. Damn it’s excruciating, it’s intoxicating to the nerves…to the heart. I’ve been poisoned and harmed as many times as most people were, but then I am easy. I move on, but over time it gets a little worse, I pity myself.

I do love myself, that’s why I am always ready to give love to others because I’ve learned to love my own self first. But whenever I do that, I don’t get something in return. Why?

I’ve met people along the way who have showed me the meaning of life, as it gets harder to deal with. But then again, I crave. I know I shouldn’t be a perfectionist, but I DESERVE to have the best.

So simply put, when I love a person… he is the best. My best.

Only they are so stupid to notice what I have to offer.

Life is a bitch right?

But I want to live life with optimism that there is indeed a “happily ever after”

So… guess I have to try once again.

Tag Tag

::START::

1. Add your blog/s to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs. It’s okay if you only post these questions in one blog as long as you answer them.

2. Get back to ME and I’ll add your blogs to the master’s list HERE {Note that you are not ALLOWED to change this links and make sure to leave the exact URL.}

3. Copy from Start to End.

4. Tag as many friends online you know. But you don’t need to be tagged in order to join.

Who played along:1. Music of my Heart 2. Me and Mine 3. Creative in Me 4. For the LOVE of Food 5. Little Peanut 6. Pea in a Pod 7. It’s Where the HEART Is 8. Around the World 9. Quicker8 10. Eds Mommy Life 11. My Precious Niche 12. Just Me.. Eds 13. Princess Vien 14. In The Spirit of Dance 15. A Pocketful of Happiness 16. 1 Twelve St. 17. Shopaholic Ties the Knot 18. A Reality Bite 19. me, Myself and I 20. My So Called Life 21. Haven of Thoughts and Feelings 22. Pretty Sentiments 23. Ysh Writes A Book


Questions and Answers:

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4.

-Sorry, no book in sight..hehe

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

-the wall

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

-Going Bulilit.haha

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time is it?

-10PM

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

-9:30PM

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

-T.V

7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?

-I went to Tagaytay, now I'm home na

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

-Sponsored reviews

9. What are you wearing?

-Shorts and a yellow shirt

10. Did you dream last night?

-I think so, can't remember.

11. When did you last laugh?

-like a minute ago

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

-paint, curtains, hehe

13. Seen anything weird lately?

-none

14. What do you think of this quiz?

-boring

15. What is the last movie you saw?

-My big love..hehe, just watched the dvd

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

-Appliances and furnitures, or a house and lot

17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know:

-you won't know..haha

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

-i'll distribute lands to poor people..

19. Do you like to dance?

-No, before yeah.

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her

-I'll name her Yshi Ziana Xielene and if it's a boy Yuan Xandre

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?

-yeah

::END::

now tagging: everyone on my blogroll!!

Closure

I do not understand a bit why I have to undergo some emotional instability once again with nothing of an assurance to even guide me.

Wow that’s long.

I’m really confused right now. I do believe in the saying “Everything happens for a reason” but then, this time I do not have any inclination as to what should be the reason behind all of this confusion.

I feel like I’m once again stupefied by that person, and the very same thing happened years ago and shit it stucks to the head…to the heart. I am the person who is never used to rejection, simply because nobody ever did that to me…but him.

Though unsaid and left hanging, I am hurt. The closure was there, was given..but why does it make me more confused, more feeling rejected.

I should have never felt anything in the first place. I am loved by someone so true and so devoted to me, I am truly thankful for having him around. I will be with him no matter what..

I just don’t wanna be left hanging in the air again…thinking…this could go on forever you know, I need this to end, and now.

Damn I made a total nonsense to my readers again, sorry guys I just stare at the monitor and type every single sentence that runs through my mind.. Like now.

I’m outta here, hafto sleep.

Hope I get some answers soon, even through a dream.

*sigh*

Babies and Weddings

I'm so thrilled to hear the news that my bestfriend is having a baby!

I mean, wow I can't imagine that my two bestfriends have babies already.

This feels so nostalgic, I keep remembering our highschool days together, our silly jokes and trips, our girl bonding moments, the boy-hunting sessions, the mall trips, the endless laughters and fun. Those moments that I really really treasure because those times made me really happy and the friendship we had, I know, is meant to last forever.

And now it all ends up to me. I was bombarded with questions as to when will I have my baby too and when will I get married. Hahaha..Lols..Soon

I'm so excited to finally witness the wedding of my bestfriend this coming month. I was the one who served as theie Ms. Match when we were in highschool, that's why I'm so happy to finally see the "fruits of my labor" face the altar together...and live happily ever after..

*happy*

Closure

I do not understand a bit why I have to undergo some emotional instability once again with nothing of an assurance to even guide me.

Wow that's long.

I'm really confused right now. I do believe in the saying "Everything happens for a reason" but then, this time I do not have any inclination as to what should be the reason behind all of this confusion.

I feel like I'm once again stupefied by that person, and the very same thing happened years ago and shit it stucks to the head...to the heart. I am the person who is never used to rejection, simply because nobody ever did that to me...but him.

Though unsaid and left hanging, I am hurt. The closure was there, was given..but why did everything make me more confused, more feeling rejected.

I should have never felt anything in the first place. I am loved by someone so true and so devoted to me, I am truly thankful for having him around. I will be with him no matter what..

I just don't wanna be left hanging in the air again...thinking...this could go on forever you know, I need this to end, and now.

Damn I made a total nonsense to my readers again, sorry guys I just stare at the monitor and type every single sentence that runs through my mind.. Like now.

I'm outta here, hafto sleep.

Hope I get some answers soon, even through a dream.

*sigh*

Realize Again

If he only knew how much I missed him..

Then maybe we won't keep thinking why and how and what he's supposed to do to have our happy time together..

But as the song goes, i'll let him go and think

"Take time to Realize"

Right?

Quarantined

Now my eyes are fuckin' swollen..

*sob*

Curse the Varicella Virus!

I won't be able to go to work of course, which also means that I won't get paid for the days that I will be nursing this pakshet viral infection! My SOM even agreed to give me a three-week sick leave! Damn! That's half of my salary gone! Huhuhu..

Now all I do is sleep and eat.

You think that's nice huh, oh no..no no no, when all you can eat are apples and oatmeal that's not fuckin nice.

I hate this! the itchy feeling and my face! my face! I can tolerate the blisters all over my body but I cannot ever accept the image I see when I face the mirror. Huhuhu..

And my supposed "special someone" isn't replying to my text messages.

I am totally depressed, stressed and dejected.

Pakshet the Chicken Pox

I hate this!

Waaaaaa!

Why????

Damn of all the times why do I have to get chicken pox now,

I mean, heller I just got the job I applied for and now I have to rest for 3-5 days just so I don't mix this contagious viral infection to the precious air of our production floor.

Pakshet tlaga!

Nice!

Snobby? Me?

You Are A Little Snobby

And being a little snobby every once and a while is totally allowed. Because if no one was ever snobby, no one would ever try to dress up or look pretty. And while you do enjoy the finest things in life (that you can afford), you tire of superficiality. You know there's more to life than what's just on the surface.

Are You a Snobby Girl?

Boring

Do you drink milk?
yes.. have to.

Do you prefer apple or orange juice?
Hmm.. orange juice.

How many clocks are in your house?
2.

How about the room your in right now?
2.

How often do you check your email?
everyday

Do you live by yourself?
No. But I wish I can live alone with mum..(only mum) hahaha

What's the most you've ever won on a scratcher?
freebies.

What's the nearest food to you right now?
peanuts.

Do you know what a plecostamous is?
Wtf.

Have you ever watched a sunrise rise over the ocean?
yeah.. lovely.

How many messages are in your inbox/outbox on your phone?
2oo+

Do you prefer wooden or mechanical pencils?
wooden..

What's on your feet right now?
dirt..haha

Do you have one best friend, or a lotta good friends?
A lotta good friends.

Snapple or SoBe?
either.

Where do you buy birthday/christmas cards?
I make them ;)

What's your take on "puppy love"?
childish/

Do you enjoy breaking hearts?
no.

What date/time was the last text you recieved?
9:31AM

When's the last time you sent a text?
8:47 AM

Do you believe there is only one "right" religion?
dunno..

What's your favorite planet, besides this one?
I don't have any favorite planet.

Does anything special happen for you on March 15th?
don't remember..

If you could get back in touch w/ a person you've lost touch with who would it be?
my gradeschool bessies Ria and Jem

What type of internet connection do you use?
broadband

Do you vote for city-related issues?
Don't care.

Do u say 'ya'll' 'u guys' 'dudes' or somethin else when talking to a group?
sometimes.

Would you want marijuana legalized if it meant alcohol would be illegal?
yeah..hehe

How many remote controls are in your house, and what are they for?
T.V..whatevs

Do you mainly use use your house phone or your cell phone?
Cellphone.

Do you take quizzes in magazines?
yep..sometimes

Do you buy bananas when they're green so they won't go bad as fast?
no

Do you do anything for a bad sunburn?
not really

Do use mouthwash? If so, what kind?
Nope.

Does anyone have the keys to your heart?
HAHAHA.

Have you ever had to run for your life?
hmm..can't remember

Is there an empty place in your heart?
somewhere..yes.

Have you ever been to a family reunion?
Yes, hate it.

Do you meditate?
Nope.

If your bf/gf cheated on you and REALLY apologized, would you take them back?
Depends. But I'd never be at peace without a good revenge..hahaha

When you say "often" do you pronounce the "T" or leave it silent?
I leave it silent.

Do you count down the days till anything?
yeah, sometimes.

Has anyone ever given you jewelery on Christmas?
not christmas..

Your heart is racing, who are you standing next to?
whoever..whatever

A class you refuse to take senior year?
Math.

Your first love?
RJ

your first heartbreak?
Lawrence

You're super nervous, what are you doing to calm yourself?
Smoke.

You look up, what do you see?
ceiling?

Someone puts a gun to your head, your response?
huh?

You're stranded on an island with the opposite sex, who is it?
Ichi.

One person you'd travel across the country to see?
dunno..no one in particular.

You delete all your pictures on Multiply except one, which one?
ewan..


Someone just handed you $100,000, now what?
shopping, travel, party, wooohoooo!

Tears are falling from your face, what's the reason?
I fucked up big time and I can't do anything bout it now.

Your phone rings, who are you expecting?
Ichi.

One person you wish that had texting that doesn't?
what? (sentence consider revising)

You go into walmart and have $20 to spend, what do you buy?
cellphone credits and ice cream..hehe

Who's been the greatest friend(s) to you throughout your life?
lots.

You've won free gas for 5 years. now what?
di happy ending..hehe

You're sitting at home bored, who do you call?
whoever.

You have to walk home from school, how long does it take?
an hour.

When someone calls you in the middle of the night do you remember the convo?
sometimes

What is your thought on smoking?
pain reliever.

Love...sigh

You Are Fairly Abnormal in Love When it comes to love, you definitely have your own take on things.
You love and hurt like everyone else, but your expectations and rules are different.
It may make it hard for you to feel understood. People don't really get where you're coming from.

Why You Are Normal in Love

You are normal because you rather die before your romantic partner.

You are normal because you believe more than one soulmate is possible.

Why You Aren't Normal in Love

You are abnormal because you kiss on the first date.

You are abnormal because you have been in love with two people at the same time.